Recovery - From Fragmentattion to Integration
J. Yvonne Mitchell
11/25/2012 10:37:48 AM
A former male friend said years ago that he would have chosen me;but, that I was too fragmented. Didn't consider what it meant nor did I ask for an explaination. That was almost 30 years ago. At 58, I realize how I have been in denial,avoided truth, and had my head hidden in the sand. At 40 I realized that my father sexually abused me and that I suffered PTSD from that and from seeing my mother have nervous breakdown and run through the house screaming. I am educated, quite helpful to others, a great teacher, and strategist. Personal success has alluded me;despite having chased many dreams and potential opportunities. This articles came at the right time and inspires me to see me in totality and face reality with the hope of happier healthier relationships and personal success in my life!
2/5/2010 10:46:50 AM
Most of this article hit home for me. I've been diagnosed with PTSD and severe anxiety. The Hippocampal section made a lot of sense for me. In 1994 I was diagnosed with Addison's Disease. I'm working with a therapist and on medication. We believe that I suffered a severe trauma when I was in the military in 1975, and have blocked it. I cannot remember any severe trauma details, but a lot of smaller ones. Working to remember, with the parts I actually remember, I have remembered other pieces of a certain day. Over thirty plus years I have had trouble dealing with jobs and people in general. There is very little info on Addison's. Other than it is caused by stress. Just about any stress. But, after reading this I can see right where, and when, the trauma and PTSD started. Although, I only remember bits and pieces of a number of things while in the military. I believe the stresses of my military service, and undiagnosed PTSD at that time, along other stresses over many years affected my cortisol production almost constantly. It makes such perfect sense now. Thank you for your studies. And this article.
You can't teach an old dog new tricks
1/28/2010 1:58:24 PM
At this point in my life I thought I had this under control. 20 years of therapy and 1 year of hospitalation,life is becoming somewhat the same as before and I am disassociating again. This can't be a phony condition or I would be better just by will. Have a good thought for me.
a real deal
11/24/2009 1:48:20 AM
I am one who has lived with many others in me all of my life and as a result, I understood later in life, of severe ritual abuse from infancy on, spanning many generations and multigenerational family connections from country to country.... quite common btw according to my memories of all the entire communities involved in abusing children generation after generation for mind control and cult purposes. Not rare at all, and the reason most of us recovering do NOT end up in so-called 'therapy', as many so-called therapists are also cult members which is a danger in itself to those of us recovering. That said, this article and contents/research are helpful for one looking at ways of retrieving information. I have to disagree with the premise however of 'integration'.... I haved lived 50 years a much more full, varied, interesting, and in-depth life as a scientist, writer, artist, health care provider and other descriptions... simultaneously. Never a dull moment in my house, and I've lived alone 20 years! I see myself as a blessing, not a curse.... and so I take issue, as I always have, with the notion that I am somehow less than a whole person. Only those who know me very well, and they are very few, know that I am a combination.... with more to offer the world in way of talents and knowledge, as well as love and compassion, than many 'singletons' in this society.
3/14/2009 1:44:47 AM
Having an eidetic mind, I can see how trauma shaped my perception of life and brought about the development of dissociation. After years of intense psychotherapy, I have undergone a dramatic change in my overall well-being. A deeper understanding of the human mind has improved my quality of life and has enhanced my artistic talent. But stress continues to trigger off dissociative episodes and periodic relapses. Severe and prolonged abuse can mentally cripple a person for years and set the stage for a debilitating dissociative disorder. Education and further research in this arena is vital to a better understanding of the human condition and how to help alleviate the symptoms of those who suffer from trauma.
9/21/2008 1:24:36 PM
I am a person who is DID and I found this article amazing. I'd given up on reading any thing on DID that wasn't the same thing just written in a different book. I wanted to know how a brain can do this? This article helped me understand the possible explanations. The "Roots in Trauma" section of the article clearly identifies three of my alter personalities. But I have to say I said "Wow, someone finially understands" when I read "In fact, the problem is not that they have more than one personality, but rather that they have less than one--a fragmentation of self rather than a proliferation of selves." Thank you, Dr. Spiegel.